Those who have been following my training on the podcast know that this training cycle hasn’t been going well for me. I’ve struggled with heat, humidity, asthma, stomach problems, and most recently, bronchitis. I haven’t been able to hit my workout targets in months, and recently DNF’d a half marathon.
I don’t normally write up race recaps of 5K races, but then again I don’t normally race 5ks anymore, and this one felt particularly blog-worthy. I was originally planning on running the St. Charles Children’s Home 5K on Labor Day, as I do most Labor Days. This weekend we ended up going up to Fryeburg to spend time with family, and I decided to run a local 5K on Sunday instead since it was going to be cooler weather than Monday anyway.
As a result of my recent changes in employment over the past year, I feel like I have been in either a constant state of flux or a state of limbo. Learning a new job for six months, then deciding it wasn’t a good fit for me has caused me to re-enter the job market, and try to find something else.
I talk about running a lot, write about running, and read about running because I freaking love running. That much is obvious. What might be less obvious is why. I really only have two reasons. One is the endorphin rush. Honestly, a lot of times running is hard and kinda sucks. Sometimes it sucks hard. But if you stick with you might get blessed with a run where your legs are moving freely, your mind is clear, your breathing is comfortable, and you feel like you are flying. And if you’re lucky, it might even happen on race day. And these are the runs that I live for, the runs that keep me coming back. The runs that make me feel like I am whole-heartedly a runner.
I think I just had an epiphany about my running. It seems so obvious to me now that I can’t believe it hadn’t occurred to me sooner. I think I am a much faster runner than I allow myself to be.