As a result of my recent changes in employment over the past year, I feel like I have been in either a constant state of flux or a state of limbo. Learning a new job for six months, then deciding it wasn’t a good fit for me has caused me to re-enter the job market, and try to find something else. I have been offered a few jobs which I have been reluctant to accept, mostly due to the hours. One sales job would have required me to give up weekends, evenings, and my days. Another job would have been too far to travel and still have time to participate in running activities and family time. I have applied at multiple staffing firms, and realize that I am qualified for nothing that pays well and fits within a normal 8-5 workday within a reasonable driving distance. I constantly ask myself, “Am I being too picky?” I don’t want to accept a job that will compromise the rest of my life, and end up with me quitting anyway.
I have a lot of skills, and am a great worker, so I’m sure I will eventually find a good position. I just feel like I’m in limbo waiting for it to happen. I have the same feeling about my ongoing marathon training. I have had a lot of tough runs lately, but I know I’m on the edge of a breakthrough, and I just kinda feel like I’m in limbo waiting for things to happen. I am eager for marathon training to be over because I really want to get keto adapted again without having it affect my training. The recent problems I’ve been having with getting nauseous during my runs has only compounded that feeling. I’m sure I am having some kind of gastrointestinal issue, and I feel like it can either be corrected by a ketogenic diet, or at least avoided by being able to comfortably run in a depleted state.
So I don’t really know what to do with myself right now. For my runs, I think I’m going to try fueling with cornstarch again and see how that goes. If that still makes me nauseous, maybe I can try energy chews – just taking a few at a time. As for work, just got to keep putting myself out there, I guess. Just keep trucking.